My weight loss journey

Woo hoo! Broke 193! I was 192 this morning, it's only a pound but at least it's a loss!

I'm really motivated to lose more weight. My husband told me I look thinner last night. I have 4 days before I have to be back at work and I would like to see another change on the scale by then.

I'm still at 193. The scale hasn't budged! No way I can be at a plateau so I just need to cut my calories back more.

This is the first weekend in a really long time that I didn't gain any weight. Friday's weight and today's weight are the same. I'm very happy about that! I'm so pumped now for the few weeks until Christmas because I know I can lose a lot more before then. It's a 5 week stretch and I'm ready!

My vacation was nice but somehow I came back weighing 204!! I weighed when I got in Sunday night so I was hoping that the scale was wrong but the next morning I was 202.5. This morning I was 195.5 though! I'm taking some new pills that seem to be helping a lot.

Since Monday morning I've lost 7 pounds in 2 days. I'm stoked about that! I'm making fast progress and I refuse to screw up. I'm doing a lot of baking this weekend but I'm not worried.

I'm at 196.5 right now. I keep losing and gaining about 5 lbs. Once I'm out of the 190s I know that progress will be faster. I just feel like I can't get to that point though! I'm not COE, I never overeat. 1500+ calories in a day makes me gain weight.

I've been considering the JUDD diet but I'm not sure if I want to do it or not. I'm worried about messing up my metabolism even more. I'm traveling this weekend so I can't plan out any meals for the next few days. I'll just have to figure out what to eat as I go.

When I get back it's time to actually grocery shop since I haven't been on a big shopping trip in a while. I've been so busy with the move and all and it's been hard to get my meals organized.

As a result from eating out a lot last weekend I weighed 199 on Monday. That is a whole new high (or low as I should say) for me. I was 195 this morning so I'm down 4 lbs this week. If I just lose 2 lbs a week I will be 120 by my birthday. I can't even believe it could be that easy. I don't want fast weight loss because the weight doesn't stay off then, I want it to stick. I may do some serious crash dieting in December because I don't want to be this fat at Christmas.

I've been eating between 800-1200 cals a day this week so if that makes me lose 4 then I may just stick to what I'm doing. I'm really not sure how to approach all this weight I need to lose. I just want to get back to 170 like I was a few months ago.

I'm going out of town in a week and I need to be 189 by then. While I'm there I'm going to take my alli so I'm not tempted to eat any of the yummy mexican food that will be around. I just need to stick to lots of salads.

If I could be 175 by christmas I'd be thrilled. I'm aiming for 170-179.

Eating just fruits and veggies today. I ate a few chocolate covered raisins that my mom brought me from some candy shop and now I feel sick. Guess that's what I get for cheating!

I have a lot of homework to do over the weekend and I have to pack pretty much everything except the things we need on a daily basis. I'm going to be really busy so luckily I won't have time to go out to eat or cook big meals.

I always seem to end the work week at 191 and gain up to 194.5 by Monday morning. I did the same thing last week and the pattern is repeating now. And just like last week I ate normal on Monday and still lost 2 lbs Tuesday morning. It's happened 2 weeks in a row, strange.

I go through spells where I want to restrict and then I want to just eat whenever I want but in smaller portions. Right now I just feel like eating what I want but not stuffiing my face.

Ok, not really, but because I ate so much over the weekend all I had to do was cut back a little on my eating yesterday and I lost 2 lbs. I need to cut back some more today. I also need to drink way more water since I only had about 35 ounces yesterday. Not good!

To make my 175 goal I need to lose a little over 1/2 lb a day. That means I really need to start watching out during my weekends. I'm thinking we need to start going someplace that we can walk at. Maybe go walk down at the beach or in a big mall. If I spent a few hours in a mall walking around and taking the stairs I'd be burning a lot more calories than I would if I sat at home.

Even though I still want to be really skinny, I'm trying to make myself ok with just being a healthy and normal weight. It's my ED just taunting me and wanting me to be as stick thin as I was in high school.

Didn't have a good weekend. Ate out a few times and overall sat on my ass most of the weekend. I'm up to 194.5 as of this morning. I didn't feel hungry all weekend but I woke up hungry which felt great.

It's so easy to be skinny. All you have to do is not eat a lot. Why is that so hard? I'm so frustrated and depressed.


The month has still just begun though and I have plenty of time to get back on track. If I could just lose .5 lbs a day I'd lose over 10 lbs this month. I really really want to get down to the 170s by November but I don't know if that's going to happen. I can't believe that in March I was 163 and felt so huge. I'd kill to be that weight again. I'm 30 lbs above that right now.

I was up 1 lb this morning.

I saw The Kingdom last night and ate popcorn and peanut m&ms. Then I just ate shrimp scampi for lunch.

It's alright though, because I have a really busy weekend ahead of me and I won't have time to eat a lot. I have many football games to watch, I'm detailing my car this weekend, and I also have to get a bunch of stuff together for a garage sale a lady at work is having. I always really like having busy weekends.

I think I may eat a lot of cereal over the next few days. I have a few boxes that I want to eat before they spoil. I need a break from having to worry about cooking and fixing meals anyway.


Hopefully I'll have a great weekend. We don't have any plans to go eat out which is good. I'm going to talk my husband into renting movies and chilling at home instead of going out.

I was up .5 lbs this morning which I don't understand since I ate around 1200 calories yesterday. I forgot what the exact intake was. If I eat less than 1500 I almost always lose weight. I didn't drink that much water though so I'm working on building that up.


This is me at 190.




I started a photobucket and I'm going to take pictures at different weights and post them. I'd like to look back and see how I looked at different sizes.

Down 1.5 lbs!

This will be my weight loss journal. I have a long way to go until I'm at a decent weight but I'll get there somehow.